“I could start fires with what I feel for you.”
| — | David Ramirez
Dear world;
I'm always curious to know what others think about me. I think that it's human nature. I've never been the sort of person to have a "crush" on someone. I think the last time I liked a boy was in the 6th grade. But now, as a freshman, there is this junior that I really like. I've never experienced this sort of thing before. I'm not worried about him liking me, I'm not a bumbling idiot when I'm around him, I don't sweat profusely. It's completely different then the last time I liked someone. I'm always wanting to see him and I can't concentrate if I"m thinking about him too much. We are friends, we participate in a club together, he pokes his head into my class to say hi if he sees me through a door, he told me I was beautiful and asked me to prom (I still can't figure out if he was joking or not...regardless it isn't happening). He hugs me sometimes. He drove me home today. I don't know if things are different this time around because I am older or if it is because I know that there is a complete improbability that this might ever work out. I naturally try to discourage myself, scared that I will make a fool of myself or get hurt. He has a naturally flirty personality so I fear that he only acting as his usual self. I've never really even wanted to kiss a boy before him but now I keep thinking about it. I am crushed because I doubt it will ever happen. I doubt we will ever happen. 
X,
Hope
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